My thoughts for the day

I have gotten in the habit lately of not going on Facebook at all, but since I had a few messages this morning, I had to open it. When I opened my Facebook account, I saw that a Facebook friend had just had a baby last week. I hurriedly opened her profile and saw pictures of her gorgeous baby girl, and it started the flood gates of tears for me. Anything having to do with babies completely sets me off these days. Even commercials showing births or babies sets me off!

And then I opened up Linda's blog to read, which is another blog I read religiously everyday. In her blog, she was talking of her beautiful baby girl Bella/Felicia, and the love she has for her. And once again, it turned me to a complete puddle of mush.

After reading Linda's blog, I found it interesting that both of us had been feeling so retrospective on the weekend. Linda was talking about her five year plan, and where things were in her life a year ago. As it was Jonas' last weekend of exams, I had some good quality alone time and really took advantage of it. I know that these times will start to come few and far between. I went for a long walk yesterday, and soaked in the spring air. During my walk, I noticed the beauty of my surroundings. I stopped to admire the ocean view, the cherry blossoms, the tulips in full bloom, and the many parents out with their kids. I thought alot about where I was in my life four years ago, and how things have changed so much and so quickly. Jonas was on the forefront of my brain, and I recalled everything from our first initial meeting at Dragon Zone, our wedding, and up to this day where we are waiting to become parents. I wished he could have joined me on this walk of mine, but I was grateful to have this time alone to be with my thoughts. And if I could see myself in five more years, where would I be? It's hard to imagine that Baby Ng will be five years old by that time! But I am trying not to have a five year plan. Since the day I met Jonas, I have just taken it day by day, and it seems to be working! But wherever I am, I know that I will be with my new little family, and continue to be surrounded with the love that I have been so blessed with.