A Break

Today, Daddy is giving me a bit of a break from mother duties. As I have a dentist appointment today, he has decided to take over for the day. They already went to the play group this morning and left me to my own at home.

I thought I would be happy to have this little break. On one hand, I am. It meant I got to wash my hair and shower in peace, eat lunch and do a few other chores. I found I was still racing through my chores at record speed- the speed for which I am used to as any parent can attest that in order to get things done around the house with an active baby, you have to work as quickly as possible.

But after keeping busy, I found myself alone eating lunch at the table. It felt very strange to be eating by myself. No baby chirping away, or baby to feed or making demands. I almost felt very lonely. Griffin has become so much a part of my life, that I feel that he is an extension of me.

But Jonas and I decided that now is a good time for me to start slowly separating from our son to make our transition easier in the fall. This is actually the first day that I will be spending the longest amount of time away from him since his birth. It all brings to home what people mean when they say a baby changes your life. I am such an independant person and love doing things on my own, that I could never imagine that I would feel this way in my life. But at least I know that Griffin will be having a ball with Daddy.